In this quiet room of mine,
staring at the computer,
and tapping the keyboard,
reminiscing life as it is.
Life exists in duality.
Everything comes in pairs of opposites.
They are unlike yet seemingly identical in nature.
All truths come with lies, and all lies resulted in truths.
Life is full of paradoxes.
But at the end of the day,
all paradoxes will find its path to be reconciled.
I have wrote many words,
putting one word after another,
putting one paragraph after another,
trying to make meaning of my thoughts.
Many people have read what I wrote.
Many may never understand my thoughts.
I don't expect them to,
because what I wrote is for me.
I am what I am.
I am also what I am not.
What seemingly is, is seemingly not.
That is my oxymoronism at the highest level.
You have problem with that ?
Thursday, April 24, 2008
In this quiet room of mine,
Friday, April 18, 2008
In life, some like to abuse, and some loved to be abused !
What is the purpose of life ? I presumed I am not the first want to ask this question, and I definitely will not be the last one to pose the same question again. Human being are born with limited capabilities to comprehend the nature of living things. While we can accept the complexities of knowledge involved in splitting and fusioning of nano science to create luxuries and destructions, but we illogically refused to accept the rationality of life. Some people are so disillusioned with life that they sought escapisms in the irrational logics of religions and God. When the teachings of religions are distorted and misguided, blind faiths overcame reasons, these people end up being deluded from the real world and subsequently became a danger to themselves and humanity.
When life is tough on earth, we do come across noisy disillusioned people, who had failed to adapt to human weaknesses and temptation. These people resorted to seek the comforts of religion in the hope of escaping the difficult life of living, and a short cut to “heavenly” paradise. But how ? By offering loud prayers to God many times everyday ? By simply pressing a button to conduct suicide bombing ? When a person lives life no longer, death is a certainty. Is having a satanic mindset of causing massive collateral lost of lives, sufferings, and pains of innocent people part of a religious package for selfish entitlement to heaven ? A twisted and perverted mind will always find way to justify his stupidity in the hope of taking short-cut to their so called heaven.
In death, there are eternal peace ?
The purpose of life on earth is to try our level best to live a logical good life within our own affordability. Life is on earth. The choice of living a hellish or heavenly paradise on earth is our own, because we are the gardeners of the earth. We reaped what we sowed. Is it such a difficult concept to comprehend ?
Despite my intense personal religiosity of Buddhism, I am also a practical man. I am positively oxymoronic ! I definitely would love to pursue an eternal life of paradise, both on earth and “heaven”. But I also realized that, it is illogical to accept the irrational logic of life after death. Sometimes, in our deep rooted religious concentration, our mind wandered into the unknowns, we sometimes see paradise on the other dimensions. But how sure are we that those visuals are not merely a state of mental hallucinations ? As a “good Buddhist”, I would like to live life to the fullest, enjoy life as it comes along, and do no intended harms to other. At the same time, I will work as hard as I can to accumulate wealth to sustain material comforts. I will try my level best to balance my spirituality with life materialisms and pervatisms.
Can religion and commitment to God guaranteed us a ticket to heaven ? I don't know. But take it this way, just in case there is life after death, it is no harm investing in religion as an insurance policy.
I am, after all, a deluded oxymoron ! Do you have problem with that ?
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
I received this sad graphics in my email today :
An industrial accident occurred on 17th. March 2008 at the Malayan Flour Mills premises resulting in the acidental death of 3 persons. On 18th. March, the new MB of Perak, Ir. Nizar and the DAP state assemblyman Ngeh Koo Ham visited the family of one of the victims. The above picture shows the MB spoke in Chinese dialect to console one of the victim's ( Lok Lai Keat, 51) 10 years old daughter, Lok Min Yee.
Sad. I do hope the company can investigate the causes of the accident and take step to ensure the maximum safety of its employee. May the almighty bless the souls of those who died in the accident.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Now, as it is, I consider myself lucky to own a building of my own, a comfortable home, a profitable small business, and all those little luxuries I dream of, but can not afford then. But am I more happy now compared to what I used to be ? Good question. Honesty, I do have my doubt.
Back then, I ate whatever sinfully delicious foods that were presented on the table. But now, I was told those delicious foods are not good for my health. I end up eating more healthier foods, but TASTELESS ! And there are also so many things I can afford to do without any second thought, but now, I think twice before I ventured into any of those things for fear of personal safety and other considerations. Am I living life no more ?
With better credit rating, I can now buy more things with money I don't have. With better disposal income, I also owned more “assets” partially financed by borrowed money. To maintain the status quo, I got to work so much more harder and dealing with more people I don't like, to defend those assets and incomes. With this newly acquired better financial status, am I happier now ?
Honestly, I do hope I acquired enough mental stamina not to be overwhelmed by pressure to fall into depression or suffering from mental illness at later part of my life. In the name of prosperity, I had seen many people incapacitated by their inability to deal with the complexities of life and eventually suffering from delusions and lunacy. All I ever want in life is, a comfortable financial status and simple happiness for the remaining journey of my life. I do sincerely pray to God not to deliver me into over ambitious pursuit of material wealths that eventually brought me into a state of perpetual happiness confined in a lunatic institution.
How much does happiness costs ? A pack of cigarettes cost Rm 8.20 and a cup of hot coffee costs less than RM 2.00, and they bring momentary satisfaction and happiness in a moment in times. Can we multiply them to perpetuate these satiation and happiness ? I don't know. Maybe that funny almighty fella up there in our deluded minds knows the answer.
I worked hard to acquired more money. When the money is finally deposited in my name, it is just a number to me. I don't feel any happier either. But when I donated those hard earned money to charity, the funny thing, I actually felt happier ! I think I am slowly deluded with the values of money, and let's hope this delusion does not drives me into insanity.
What worth is the values of money when it can't buy happiness with the limited time I have ? Well, it is about time to seriously considering retirement plan. But that is for me to ponder tomorrow. Tonight, I am going to have a good night sleep. Good NiteZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......
Life, with all its attachments for desires, is indeed a suffering in disguise. Om Mani Pedme Hum. Namo Amithaba Buddha.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
- “All bloggers are liars, they cheat people using all kinds of methods. From my understanding, out of 10,000 unemployed bloggers, 8,000 are women.”
- "There are no laws in the cyberworld except for the law of the jungle. As such, action must be taken so that the "monkeys" behave,....”
- “These writers do not have an Asian mentality but lean towards a Western thinking because they were educated overseas.... Thus they assume that the Western style of democratic freedom is better. The goblok ( Indonesian slang for STUPID) writers only have their own interests at heart and should be ignored.......”
- “Why I say they are coward? Because they are afraid of using (web) addresses in the country but use overseas addresses to slam our country leaders. Is this the character of a man? This is not a man, this is a ‘pondan’..........”
- “Bloggers are rumour-mongerers, cowards, and a nuisance....”
Who made all these uncalled for remarks ? While they enjoyed their so called freedom of expressions to degrade themselves, others should just be contented with singing the same tunes to glorify freedom from expressions ? Say whatever they want, they are what they said of others. These are the people who are incapable to respect the fundamental human rights for freedom of expressions. It gave me the funny feeling that these wondering souls are basically staring hopelessly at their mirrors describing themselves.
Whatever it is, they finally realized that majority of bloggers are well educated, cultured, civilized, and with sacred respect for human rights and human decency. So now, they made a 360 degree turn wanting to be as respectable as bloggers. Bolih kah ? They are now saying "All candidates ( to contest for position in the party ) must have blogs, If not, they are not qualified to be leaders." Read HERE. I said, please go park your rhetorics elsewhere. Please don't pollute the cyberspace. Perhaps, those who show disrespect for bloggers previously should blog in their controlled MSM – the hard print copies.
He who laughs last laughs best. Konichiwa, all you oxymorons out there are all welcome to join the exclusive cyber club of liars, monkeys, pondan, cowards, and whatever derogatory words you deemed best.
Tonight, in the nibbana of my mind, I see lots of monkeys beating their chest wanting to be bloggers................ They are all eagerly washing their mouths waiting for their turn to stick this big (maybe not so big) banana of mine into their mouths. Damn SHiok !!!!!
Posted by Dalai Baru ( CK ) at 4/12/2008 12:51:00 AM
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
“.... In early January, the company concerned was said to have employed more than 100 illegal immigrants to seize the land worth about RM40 million. Using attack dogs, samurai swords and shotguns, the foreigners muscled their way into the oil palm plantations in Kampung Tingkayu and prevented 171 smallholders from entering the land, which they had toiled for the past 23 years. The thugs stay in makeshift huts to carry out 24-hour patrols to guard the entrance to the plantations. More then 40 police reports were lodged between January and March this year at the Kunak police station and numerous letters were sent to the Sabah Land and Survey Department, but until today, the plight of the smallholders remains unchanged. One of the affected smallholders who wished to be known as Lee, 56, said roads leading to their plantations were illegally diverted and iron chain perimeter fences were put up to prevent them from entering their own plantations. Lee claimed that when reports were lodged against the thugs at the Kunak police station, the police officers did not entertain the smallholders and often advised them not to waste their time. ...” Read HERE.
Sad ! I thought this sort of hooliganism and illegal land grabs only happened in Mugabed nation or a banana republic. Looks like in this land of self proclaimed civil society, there are still so many barbarians swinging samurai swords to seek selfish and decadence wealths. Now, where are all those righteous politicians who are supposed to defend the rights of the helpless and defenseless ? Are those poor farmers too insignificant and worthless to be defended ? Well, I guess, everywhere you go, for indecent wealths, there are always corrupted and greedy people working together to sell their souls to the devils. I do sincerely hope that, at the end of the day, justice will be served on all those arrogant and immoral people.
I do not really know since when we had been indoctrinated with the values to blindly idolized wealth and the indecent accumulation of wealth. I am quite pissed off with the realization that, walking among us, there are indeed many greedy, corrupted, heartless, and dishonest people flexing their muscles to further impoverish weaker fellow Malaysians into submission, and accepting the inevitability of the need to accommodate the wimp and fancy of those barbaric pariahs.
Tonight, In the nibbana of my mind, I heard Malaysians crying..........
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
However, if you still have the horny itchiness in God knows where, and need to make sex more pleasurable and interesting, here are 25 tips from sexperts to sizzle your erotic sensations. Read Ultimate Sex Tips From The Women Who Know Best.
If these sex tips still don't satiate your quest to spice up your sex life, maybe you can take a clue from the material girl, Madonna and Guy Ritchie. Both of them resort to competitive board game, Scrabble, to remain sexually married. Read SCRABBLE AND SEXY UNDIES AS THEY TRY TO REKINDLE LOVE.
I do wonder, how come sex is such a monumental task to some people ? What do these people usually do when on the bed with their partners ? According to Chris Gooding, a Bedroom Specialist, out of the top ten activities on the bed, sex ranked last. According to the survey done by him, the top ten activities on the bed are : 1 Sleep, 2 Talking, 3 Watching TV, 4 Net surfing, 5 Reading, 6 Listening to music, 7 Using phone, 8 Work, 9 Computer games, and finally 10 Sex. Read Sex is only the 10th most popular bedtime activity.
And, just in case you managed to excite yourself to engage in the prehistoric coupling activities, how long should a good session of sex last ? According to Journal of Sexual Medicine, anything longer than 13 minutes is too long. The Ideal duration should be between 7 to 13 minutes.
Hmmm.. I didn't know the act of screwing each other can be so routinely complicated. Certainly, I will not be surprised to learn that, the need to have perfect and good sex had made many ignoramus sexually dysfunctional.
To screw or not to screw ? I ponder.............. But whatever it is, sex is still so much better and noble than indulging in politics. In sex, you make love. But in politics, they rape each other.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
Looking back, I do have my fair share of betrayals and rewarding encounters dealing with people. My simple conclusion is, in this life time, there are basically two group of people. The good one, and the not so good one. Sometimes, I do wish I can have the ruthless capacity to single out the “not so good one” and eliminate them from the face of this earth. But like it or not, I do not have these negative talents. Good or Bad, I am an still an emotional human being capable of greater love than I can imagine. At times, all these people have occupied a part of my heart. To single the bad one out, and eliminate them, is like cutting out a piece of heart. The thought of taking actions against these people did indeed hurt deeply. So, I always take the easy way out and let it be. Hopefully these unwelcome people can go away eventually to practice the deceits elsewhere. Honestly, I do not hate these people. At my age, it is no longer worth the while to indulge in this negative emotions and unproductive resentment. Perhaps, the practice of Buddhism had somehow strengthen my enlightenment to seek a meaningful approach to life with purpose and as it is. A life with negative urges for revenge and resentments is death in disguise..
At times, I do pray for those people who wronged me. Deep within my heart, I know, no matter how far down the road they have gone down the wrong way, given the right opportunity, they will turn back to the right path of decency, ethics, and morality. I do sincerely believe that, a meaningful life is not about finding faults with others, but continuously cultivating greater generosity and compassions to forgive, forget, and move on with life. After all, the greatest challenge in life is not about defeating your enemies, but to accept them as what they are, and live with it.
I realized, the purpose of life is to live as happily as you can with what you have, and live an affordable life with contentments. From cradle to grave, and as we approached the finality of life, relentlessly seeking to right the wrongs that had been done on you will become irrelevant. The greatest happiness in life is to forgive those who wrong you, cause no emotional pains to others, and relief the burden of hatreds, blame, anger, grief, and resentments within you.
I will live life on my own terms, with no malice to others, free from emotional baggages, and stand accountable to all my actions. Finally, I do sincerely pray to that almighty fella up there, not to send too many deceitful to test my faiths and generosity.
Om Mani Pedme Hum
Thursday, April 03, 2008
I read with interest a news article by SJECHO on a local supermarket (MYDIN) taking the religiously righteous move to condemn a Dutch made movie called FITNA. "In a very emotional outburst, Ameer Ali ( Managing Director of MYDIN ) condemned the movie and subsequently announced that all Mydin malls and emporiums would boycott all Dutch products with immediate effect. Notices have been put up around the mall urging shoppers to stay away from these products. Additionally, red labels have been placed on shelves displaying Dutch products, informing consumers of the origin of the product. " Click HERE for the news article. SJECHO is a local community free newspaper in Subang Jaya.
If I understand the news report correctly, MYDIN announced their decision to “boycott” all Dutch made products, but at the same time, still displaying the Dutch made products on the shelves with red labels. Mydin's action should be more consistent with their words. MYDIN should have just removed all the Dutch made products from the shelves. Somehow, I seemed to have the perception that, on one hand Mydin wanted to portray their religious righteousness, but on the other hand, they also do not want to risk losing out revenues in case consumers still insist on buying the Dutch made products. It is indeed amusing to find a business organization standing on the middle of the road playing with consumers' religious sensitivities.
Perhaps, in addition to removing all Dutch made products from their shelves, MYDIN should take the additional step to initiate legal proceedings against the maker(s) of Fitna by outlining which contents of the movie infringed their sensitivities.
I had not personally viewed Fitna. Therefore, I do not know how “INSENSITIVE” is the movie towards Islam. Assuming that Fitna is indeed very insensitive to the Islam, my personal opinion is, as a civilized and educated man, we should realized by now, that the movie is not made by all the Dutch men and women, but one man with distorted views of the Islamic religion. It is perfectly legitimate to boycott the movie, but let us not be blinded by emotional preferences to boycott all things Dutch. Why are we behaving like an uncultured men trying to condemn all the Dutch ? Let us not allowing one misguided movie maker to influence us into cultivating hatreds against a peaceful country and her people. We are all educated and civilized man and women, not emotional pariahs.
Personally, I love Dutch made diary products. I will not ridicule myself to boycott everything that is Dutch simply because there is a misguided Dutch man out there showing disrespect to other religions. I will continue to buy Dutch made products from other supermarkets. As far as I am concern, religion and consumerism are two separate matters. I would like to keep it at that.
Sincerely, if the movie show disrespect to the Islamic religion and infringed the sensitivities of Muslims, I do hope the dutch government can initiate actions to impress upon the makers of the movie that it is not a good business practice and as well as unethical to show disrespect to other people religions.
Increasingly, we are now faced with unreasonable intrusions of religions into politics and government's administrations all over the world. It is legitimate to use religion to create niche acceptance in commercial activities. But, we are also beginning to see a worrying trend of religions being mis-used to gain commercial coverage. What next ? Acceptance of religions being used to impose narrow minded intolerances on other people's lifestyle ?
Of late, we had been tuned to the idea that, freedom of expressions comes with responsibility. Responsibility is a subjective matter. Different cultures have different tolerances of morality and values. It is also irresponsible to use religion to curtail human rights and to restrict freedom of expressions simply because those rights may not be compatible with our perceptions. Are we now immorally acceptable to religions being used as a basis to suppress the fundamental human rights and freedom of expressions of others ? My philosophy is simple, if you don't like what you see, hear, or smell, walk away. See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil, and, do no evil. You mind your own business and let the rest mind their own.
Religion should and always be a matter of the heart and personal preferences. Afterall, all religions are created by men in the name of God. We should be allowed and be respected to believe in whatever we want to believe. Increasingly, this world is also slowly and surely being polluted by misguided people calling other people infidels or unbelievers simply because they are of different religions.
Freedom of expressions is a sacred rights of modern civilization. We should defend the rights to express our opinions without any fears or inhibitions. If in the event our expressed opinions are deemed to be wrong, then the receivers should point out with factual arguments in a healthy forum, not uncultured emotional threats, instigations, or retaliations. Buddha once said “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one getting burned.”
Without doubt, I would also like to think of myself as a very religious person. But I walked the middle path. I do not imposed my religious values on others, and I do not condemn other people religions. Likewise, I expect other people to have the basic decency to mind their own business, keep their righteous religious values to themselves, and park their grievances within themselves. I am sicked and tired of people trying their level best to use religions as launch pads to seek popularity and gain selfish interests. As far as I am concerned, if there is a God, then this God of you and me is an almighty institution that does not need sinners like us to defend his honours against other sinners.
"Of course, there are different truths on different levels. Things are true relative to other things; "long" and "short" relate to each other, "high" and "low," and so on. But is there any absolute truth? Something self-sufficient, independently true in itself? I don't think so." - A Buddhist quote.
Of reason and faith, everybody knows the way, but few actually walk the path. Let those who commit no sin casts the first stone. Beyond that, let us live for today, and make friends, not enemies. If my comments hurt your sensitivity, please read my lips, my sincere apology. It is unintentional. I am merely exercising my rights to free speech.
Namo Amithaba Buddha.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
do not know what we haven't known.
Believing that God is in the skies,
hell is under our feet,
and earthly humans are sinners.
We'd been to far away places,
but never been to our souls.
We'd been better educated,
but never learned rationalities.
We are born with two ears and one mouth,
but we never listened twice as hard.
For stagnating in our current state,
the past had became a distant constant,
and the future remained an illusive variable.
For wanting to be,
we will never be what we used to be.
And, we will never be what we want to be.
Rome was not built in one day.
So is our ignorances.
Life is, after all,
a lesson imperfectly learned.
To be or not to be ?
are we honestly master of our own destiny ?
Don't worry, be happy.
What ever will be, will be.
Tomorrow will always be,
what it ought to be.
Namo Amithaba Buddha.
“SHE was a child maths genius who won a place at Oxford University aged just 13—but now the only sums Sufiah Yusof is interested in are the ones she earns as a HOOKER. For sad Sufiah, the daily equation she has to solve is simply sex equals £130 as she sells her body to punters over the internet. The gifted girl with the winning smile had the world at her feet ten years ago and should be a rich woman by now—but last week she was busy subtracting her underwear for our undercover reporter in her dingy back street flat. “
Read further at “News Of The World” Sad, good brain gone down the drain. But again, it is her rights to choose her lifestyle and live life according to her wishes.