About my hair...

My hair,
did I see them flowing in the air ?
I caught strands of them lying on the chair.
Because of that awful chemotherapy fare,
I am beginning to lose my hair.
My beautiful hair,
would you just stay right up there ?


When the bitter wind blows,
I may no longer have the usual waving hair.
I looked in the mirror,
I now understand why people stare.

With or without the hair,
it is still a long road ahead,
to fight that impossible fight.
I may win, I may lose,
but Should I despair ?
Because who care ?
Because I still have a beautiful hat to wear !

Hey, the way you sing offends my religious sensitivity....

PAS' Federal Territory Youth chief Kamaruzaman Mohamad said inviting the Barbados-born singing sensation to Malaysia was “akin to insulting eastern culture, belittling local artistes, intentionally causing losses to the country’s economy and supporting Israel’s war policy, which is supported by America”. Read further at PAS plans to stop Rihanna concert. Wow, what a mouthful of stupidities, narrow mindedness, intolerances, and lack of respect for freedom of expression and basic human decency.

Well, what else can I say ? Increasingly we are being forced to accept narrow mindedness and intolerances as a way of life. We seemed to have a growing number of people with misplaced righteousness to constantly trying to impose their misguided values and transgressions on others. When they made offensive remarks and gestures, they claimed it is their racial and religious rights ! They complaint about what is offending them, other people opinions that they deemed as insulting to their religions, etc. This world is indeed being slowly populated with shameless grievances and apologies seekers in the name of religion and race.

We have groups of people condemning the white supremacists group, KKK as racist, but I am not surprised to note that, the same groups of idiots felt that it is acceptable to promote racial supremacies of their race as constitution rights and privileges in their own countries ! What a bunch of immoral hypocrites. Alarmingly, we are also having group of religious fanatics who claimed that God will reward them a place in heaven if they murder innocent people who are of different religions ! The amusing thing is, they go around the world claiming that, theirs is a religion of peace ! Peace ? Or could it be PISS mispronounced as PEACE ?

For those misguided religious fanatics who still insist on killing innocent “non believers” as a ticket to heaven, let me put this to you, THERE IS NO PLACES IN HEAVEN FOR PEOPLE WHO COMMIT BARARIC CRIMES. Or rather let me quote you this paragraph in a email which I received recently - “Would you rather have your God, who tells you to kill me in order for you to go to heaven, or my Lord Jesus Christ who tells me to love you because I am going to heaven and He wants you to be there with me?”

By the way, I saw the inauguration of Barack Obama as the 44th President of United States of America. Despite all our MSM's negative portrayal of USA, and the calling by few misguided people with misplaced angers to boycott USA, I still think America is the most righteous nation in the world. America is still the country that respect human rights, democracy, and equality of races. For those shameless Malaysians who still feel that it is righteous for tor them to badmouth or instigate hatreds against America or other countries, my advise is, please look at our own backyard first. Do not judge others because we no longer have any moral standing at all in the first place.

Dong Dong Chiang, dong dong chiang, sin nian tau, sin nian tau, GongXI FarChoy, GongXi Farchoy....... May you all have a blessed Chinese New Year !!!!!

Oil prices slump again……

Despite the OPEC’s attempts to cut output to artificially short circuit the supply, oil prices tumbled to USD33 per barrel…….. I keep my fingers crossed that it will go below USD10 per barrel soon. Not possible ? Remember, in March 1999, oil prices were USD11 per barrel. For far too long, the OPEC countries have been making too much sinful profits.

My gut feeling is, the higher the oil price, the more incidents of terrorist acts committed worldwide. So when the oil price is low, probably there will be no fundings and sponsorships for terrorists to commit crimes against humanity.

God is great, and Praise be with the Lord……..

By the way, why are we still paying more than RM 1 per litre at the petrol station ?

Of faked morality and human indecency.....

When more than 5000 innocent civilians died in the 911 terror attack, I saw a video clip showing thousands of “innocent Palestinian women and teenagers” dancing and shouting in the streets of Gaza celebrating the cruel death of innocent civilians. Do civilized human beings rejoiced at the death of fellow human beings ? No ! Only barbarians do that.

When the IDF of Israel counter attacked HAMAS in Gaza, Should I, as a decent human being show sympathy to all those “self proclaimed innocent civilians” who encourages violences to be inflicted on other people ? God is great when you murdered other innocent people because they are of different faiths ? I pray to the Almighty for all you sinful people to repent and stop breeding hatreds.

I will never forgive all those cowards who willingly allowing their children and women to be used as human shield and to be killed to gain publicity. Stop showing your faked pitiful faces, you can fool some people all the times, all the people some of the times, but not all the people all the times.

Today, one misguided Kutty said, “It's morally correct to boycott American's and Israel's goods...”. The question is, what constitute morality ? Why should I boycott the juicy persimmon from Israel ? Why should I punish the poor innocent farmers of Israel simply because some immoral people dislike them due to differences in religion ? So, my misguided Kutty, please park your faked morality elsewhere. Should I boycott the Mamak restaurants because I don't like all the illogical and unfair statements made by one misguided Kutty ? At least I am cultured enough not to burden innocent people with boycott because of my intolerances of other people's opinions.

Recently, the Dalai Lama said "It is difficult to deal with terrorism through non-violence.", and he also said “ I love President George W Bush” So, are you also going to instigate the rest of the world to boycott all the Buddhists with your politic of hatreds ?

Another idiot recently made a statement that he want to mobilize 5 million school children to demonstrate against Israel. Hello, watch my lips and listen carefully, go ask your own children, and leave my children out of it. I do not wish to see my children being influenced to take side and be indoctrinated with hatreds for which all of us have no comprehensions. I have nothing against Israel and her people.

Well, what else can I say ? Preach love not hate..... Stop instigating violences by taking sides. Let's us not deepen the wounds. Let us not indoctrinate our children with hatreds and let the wounds bleed forever. For a start, why can't we teach our children to love the Jews, the Christians, the Hindus, the Buddhists, etc.... ?

I am sicked and tired of all these street demonstrations, protests, boycott calls, etc by all these indecent people with faked morality. May God give them a pair of fair eyes, and fill their hearts with love and compassion.........

Of life with cancer........

The other day, I was asked by a visitor with questions like “Are you dying of cancer ?”, “How much time are you left with ? “, “How is your preparation to meet with your maker “”, etc., etc., etc..... I am so used to people saying inappropriate things to cancer patients like me because they want to look and sound normal when dealing with such taboo illness such as cancer. Honestly, I do not felt uncomfortable at all with these type of questions, because I am more than normal compared to all those normal person out there.

Surprise, surprise, surprise.... I am going to touch on the subject of cancer again. Not surprise ? No ? Well, at my current state of mind and self imposed lack of productive activities, I do find it de-stressing to talk about cancer and my so called “amazing journey” of “glorifying cancer” !

For a start, why do we always associate cancer with death and sufferings ? Without wanting to disappoint all those pessimists, I am not dying of cancer, but living with cancer. I am not really worry about how much time I am left with, but rather, I am working on how to begin my life with new approach, and enjoy whatever time I am given with. Am I ready to meet my maker ? I know, death does not go away by denying the eventuality, but why do I have to worry about it now ? I will live life one day at a time, and sing praise of the Almighty's love every morning. When it comes to death, nothing really make sense, so why bother with the timing of death now ?

The funny thing about being inflicted with cancer is, because the word, CANCER, is such a scary word. It automatically put you into psychological gear of changes in life. Your life will never be the same again, and you are automatically geared into defensive to attempt to drive your life back into normal again. You began to realize the beauty of an ordinary day you used to grumbled about, and like it or not, you tend to miss everything that you considered normal in the past.

They said, when you are stricken with chronic disease, your life changed. Period. Well, is it an overstatement, or is it an understatement ? You can take it standing up, or sitting down. But look at the humanistic side, how many people can actually accept the news that they are inflicted with terminal illness with positivity ? I do not know about others, but my life did indeed changed ! Whether it changed for the better or worst, the only thing I can say now is, “stay tune....”.

I realized, the physical tumor is real and it is still there, but it doesn't really bother me anymore. I leave this medical problem to the good doctor to worry, I will move on with life, live life as it should be. I don't really know, whether I am now a survivor of cancer, or a cancer patient on the road to recovery. But one thing I do know, the Almighty has given me unparalleled inner strength to deal and cope with the challenges ahead. What ever it is, by faith, the Almighty is my healer, I leave it to the Almighty to decide my fate.

The thing about chronic disease such as cancer is, I had learned, it does not matter how you got it or why you got it. Since you are inflicted with it, you need to accept the fact that you are now one of the statistical figure in the shrine of cancer, you just need to summon whatever strength you have to manage it to ensure that you live a quality life and you are not a burden to others. You know, sometimes, watching my wife provide care to me is by itself a heart wrenching exercise. As a man, you are there to provide selfless comforts to the family, but now end up at the receiving end. There are also nights where pains and fears kept you awake and put you through agonizing hours of trying to sleep, but I also learned, there is this wonderful drug called Arcotia to put you back to your attempt to achieve nirvana of sleep. So, when dealing with cancer, it is all about the management aspects of it, and it is really a subject of mind over matter, if you don't mind, it doesn't really matter. With or without cancer, life does go on...... Honestly, I do realize now, life is really worth living, the future is worth facing, and as a cancer warrior, I shall fight till my last breath........

I know, it is a lonely and challenging road ahead, and there are no foot prints to guide me in my attempt to recover my health. But I am born with a will to survive, I shall fight my fight in that invincible war zone. It is between me and those prasitic mutant cells. My mask is now on, I am now the invincible cancer warrior hunting for those cancerous cells, to search and destroy, and to emerge victorious. .

I have learned to look at fear in the face, and along the road to recovery, I have gained courages and experiences to deal with the uncertainty of life. The whole process of living with cancer is itself a journey of enlightenment! As a cancer patient, I have an obligation to live my life to the fullest, and to fight the menace with all my spiritual and medical arsenal. I also have an obligation to be truthful to myself, live life as it is, and be an inspiration to others to overcome their predicaments. Well, whatever you are doing out there, let take a pause, and smell the roses.... It is a wonderful world out there !


C'est LaVie !!!!