Waltzing with the spirits ?

I am not at my usual self again tonite...... I am now in a conscious state of spiritual insanity - a love for my self with full control of my habitat, and empathy to the misguided spirits. I guess, if you are conscious of what you are doing, perceived insanity is basically a form of enlightened peace.

I have this uneasy feeling again about unseen energies disturbing my personal energy fields. I am sensitive to my habitat and I am still in full control of myself. The previous few nights, I have been having strange dreams, my sleeps are disturbed, and during day times, I have unexplainable feelings of unease. I believe, the security of my habitat has been breached by spiritual intrusion into my energy fields. Friendly or otherwise, I do not know and I do not wish to know. I am giving the spiritual intruders the benefit of doubts. However, they are reminded to come peacefully with no ill intents, and to leave peacefully with no trails of bad energies.

While the intruders are from the other side, I am on this destined side. - the right side. I do have fear of the unknowns, but I do not need to respond to fear with fears. I do believe that the best defense against spiritual intrusion is love. To overcome fear and evil, I shall respond back with love. For the moment, I shall treat every spirit as angel.

The spirits may have walked the misguided path into my habitat, but they do not belong to this 3 dimensional realms of ours, and their presence are not welcome. They have trespassed into my habitat, I know they are living in fear resulting in them attacking my being as their form of primitive defense. I do not know how to guide them back into their own realms. It is not my business to be sympathetic to their plights, and I will definitely not give them permission or allow them to linger on in my physical habitat. With Love, I shall invite them with dignity to find their own lights to venture back to their side of the world where other loving spirits awaits them.

As a Buddhist, I am well aware of my reality. This space and this energy field is my reality, and I am destined to be in control of my own reality with clear boundary between reality and the other side of spirituality. The power is within me to exert authority over my self and my reality. No spirits, good or bad, can intrude or harm my physical being without my explicit invitation or permission.

So, my dear uninvited spirits, attach me not and disturb me not. For your own good, please leave NOW. In the mean time, I am going to take a shower with sea minerals to enhance my positive energy strengths and purifying the contaminated energy fields. I know, the soothing shower water rushing down to my body will replenish me with plentiful loving energies to overcome all those negative energies. I wish you a safe journey back..........


Om Mani Padme Hum.... Om Namo Amithaba Buddha.....

Whirlpool of life

I stand there

watching the beautiful butterfly
struggling to lift its wings.
I watched its death.
A tear of sadness to bid a quiet goodbye.
A beautiful butterfly forever gone.....

God,
how much more earth time I still have,
before you call it a day for me ?
Before you set my spirit free ?

This life,
You gave me Joys and sorrows,
laughters and tears,
hopes and desperations,
strengths and weaknesses,
insights and confusions,
successes and failures.
You have guided me
thru' life's flip-flops.

What else you have not gave me ?
With all these experience of senses,
Am I now qualified for a life of no regret ?
And, a journey to eternity ?

You promised me
a simple life scripted in simple plot.
This heart you called temple,
are gifted by you with
illusions, hallucinations, and visions
of things to come.
Is this the wonderful plan
you promised me ?

Behind this veil of ignorance,
I know, you are the one
that causes to be.
I believe,
I trust,
and
I have faith in you.

Thank God Is Friday ?

Today is Friday. According to the Kongchiew (Banana - Yellow outside, White inside), today is December 22nd 2006. But for a "Chitan" like me (Egg - White outside, Yellow Inside ), today is the 3rd day of the 11th lunar month in the year of the Dog. Officially, today is Dong Zhi ( Winter Solstice). Another 57 days to go before we welcome the year of the Pig in February 18th 2007.

The week that was, was full of surprises and tainted with too many unknowns ! But nevertheless, TGIF. And today, the night shall be the longest, and it is a long weekend ahead. So, I shall have a good sleep, and have enough time to recuperate and recharge my battery for higher level of energy confrontations in the coming week. The fact that I am still able to blog here means, I am still a sane man ! Thank God.

Spiritually speaking, I have been challenged with occurances of uninvited unknowns and phenomena. My momentarily mental weaknessess have consciously allowed myself to be aware of the "invincible realms". I know what these morphers want, and I definitely know where I stand. It is not that I do not believe in spirituality or rather the greater power of the almighty, but for the time being, I need to find a physical and logical conclusion to defend my state of being. I need to built my energy reserves to withstand the mounting intrusions of negative energy contaminations. I have resisted and neutralized ome unknown spiritual parasites, I am in full control of my mind now , and I shall make my stand again in the circle of ring.

My mind have been tormented for practically the past two weeks with spiritual unknowns. To a certain extend, my emotion has been zig-zaggedly polarized with fears of unknowns and the attachment to the desires to embrace the power of spirituality. Should I restrained myself from experiencing the unexplored environmental enticings because of my present materials commitments ? How do I know I am not stepping into the territories of insanity ? How do I handle future consequences that defied logical conclusion ?

As I become more logical, I am beginning to lose my ability to parse and sense. Have I become spiritually blind and an intellectual fool ? On the other hand, by being logical, I have been spiritually challenged to submit to this parasitic domain of unknowns. How can I defend my logical state of being from interferences that defied logics ? I know I will.

Or, Am I going through a period of mental hallucinations that gave rise to pseudo events that simulate unexplainable environmental mysteries ? That temple of the kings look so beautiful. Should I just be a little bit spiritually adventurous by putting my first step into the door of perpetualities and become the miracle workers of the almighty ? God, it is difficult to manage the state of constant awareness of both the "visible" and "invisible" dimensions.

Arrg... Am I a human being, Spiritual being, or Physical being ? All these nonsense and insensible rantings, I need more coffee now to keep my physical mental alertness !

Life as it is ?

A few days ago, I woke up feeling lousy about everything, probably due to the realization that during this period of the year, business is usually very slow, collections of account receivables are at a standstills, and I have tons of bills to paid. Life is indeed can be very stressful. Nevertheless, I managed to get up and get myself ready to go to work.

What caught me by surprise is, when I open up my shoe cabinet at the car porch, I realized all the left side of my shoes are missing ! What kind of perverted thief would do that, stealing only one side of the shoes ? What equally surprise me is, I found out later that all the missing left side of shoes are lined up in a straight line outside my gate ! All the shoes were exposed to rains, are wet and soggies with funny leather smell. What kind of sicko would do that ?

Then, I heard a voice, or rather noises implying to me that, I should have crossed the spiritual path long time ago ! My path is not the middle path, in life I must made a choice, I can not forever walk the middle path. Now, am I suppose to wear only one side of the shoes and the other side bare footed ? So, that is how the funny spirits trying to make me take a stand ? To show me how uncomfortable it is to walk the middle with one foot bare footed ?

But that could be a hallucinations, there must be a logical explanation to these weird incidence. When I have the time, I will go deeper into it to derive a logical and scientific explanations. For the time being, I have a family to feed and I have my commitment to my colleagues in the office. Am I supposed to feel scared of the unknowns and felt threatened ? Nice try, brothers ! Leave me alone to decide my crossing over date. Just don't push me or irritate me anymore.

After putting up my socks, I went to the bathroom to retrieve my rubber slippers. I wore the rubber slippers to work. Funny thing is, I actually felt very comfortable wearing the rubber slippers in the office for the past few days. So in life, we do need to have certain objective control of our lives and be adaptive to make the best out of every negative situation. We should never let our momentary hallucinations indulged us into illogical and fanatical interpretations of strange events happening around us as "spiritual phenomena".

In life, there is only two paths we can take. The "spiritual path" and the "practical path". As a human being, our lives are governed by the law of physics, so the practical path can always be explained logically in a deterministic manner. Whereas the so called "spiritual path" is nothing but strange occurrences of "now you see it, now you don't". The "spiritual path" is meant for spirits and angels, it is illogical for human being wanting to live in the realm of spirits and angels. By indulging in spiritual path, how can we be sure of life's outcome. So why indulge in it knowing very well it is really not our purpose to live in a life of perpetual hallucinations and fantasies. There is a line to be drawn, the positive energies should never be mixed with the negative energies. As a Yang dweller in these world of duality of energies manifestations, it is really not that difficult to keep our sanity by consistently walk the practical path. That Yang or Positive energies within us is within our control. Why contaminate it with the negative energies ?

Om Namo Amithaba Buddha........

Voice from within speaks....

Salts is good,
have peace among yourselves

I have come
from the other side of the river
and have taught you.
Have you not learned ?
Don't lose the lessons.

What have taken place
among yourselves, learn.
Do not rewrite history.

I have not command the world
to be enrolled in my name,
do not census,
and do not censure.
Learn to cohabitate
with the diversities I gave you

You destroyed the temples,
but I rebuilt it
in the heart of my children in three days.
Do not kick the stone too many times.

In your despairs,
I help you to cast your net in deep water,
you have been rewarded with the catch.
Have I ever failed you ?

I do not need to be defended
I do not need you to conduct misdeeds in my name.
Respect Life, not death.
Glorify life, not death
Love peace, not violences.
Do not manipulate my words.
You are not GOD. I am.
I love you.

Padme, padme, padme