Tuesday, November 24, 2009

From the eyes of a deluded mind....

The past few days had been a mentally exhaustive exercise for me. I research through the Internet and read up a lot of materials on Cryosurgery to assess its relevant as another option in fighting cancer. Yesterday, I forwarded my CT scan images and medical report to the hospital for them to assess my condition on the suitability of cryotherapy as a treatment for me. The hospital should be able to revert to me on the duration of admission, treatments protocols, and the total costs involved by end of next week. At the moment, although, financially I am almost at the brink of disaster, but this is the least of my worry now, I know, when the time comes, the good Lord will provide. So, I am keeping my fingers crossed that it will be an affordable and curative exercise for me.

Looking back, this whole “journey” I gone through has been a real adventure of enlightenments. As much as I was negatively affected by the emotional and physical disturbances, but I also acquired new skills and beginning to appreciate the habitat I am in in a different way. I self taught myself in Chinese calligraphy to smooth my trouble minds, and I also took up photography as a hobby to practice patience.

Over the period of the past 12 months, I took more than a thousand photographs. I am still learning to sharpen my skills. The followings are some of the pictures which I had taken :

"At the airshow TUDM 2009"
"The Middle Finger Salute"
"Famous Taiping Cendul"
"Bukit Tinggi"
"Taiping Lake Gardens"
"The Twins"
"the Orchid"

"The Thinking Monkey"
"The Eagle"
"The Butterfle"
"The Trinity"
Garden Flower"


Anonymous said...

You should learn meditation to calm down the mind. I'm not sure if SBS teaches, but it's an orthodox way-place and I'm sure the Bhante there (who is quite respected) can teach meditation. I'll give you the link. It's not far from Taiping. check it out and maybe learn to meditate (non-sectorian). You can still be a Christian and meditate. meditation is not praying. It's is turning the mind inward to comtemplate the ripples of the mind - when the mind is calm, there are no ripples. Ripples are stirred up in the troubled mind.


Anonymous said...

Hello C K, i read your book and i must say.....you are gifted! Thus, am now here to read your blog. i teared when i read yr entry about your mom, i lost mine 5 years ago. i am also sorry you are going through what you are this season of your life.

Just wanted to share with you that i stumbled upon a blog and was marveled this young girl "unknowingly" reminded me of something..."Love keeps record of no wrongs".. Now as much as i can, i only pen down things which lifts my spirit......there is too much unhappy events in life already, so why allow it to manifest by putting pen to paper.

All i can say is be encouraged by the love and care you have around you. Great to find new passions in life and keep up the good cheer..If you have not read this book already, "Tuesdays with morrie", one of the things the old professor (who was suffering from a degenerative muscle disease)did was .........each day, he allowed himself only 15 minutes/day to feel lousy, and the rest of the day, he focuses on what lifts his spirit...

Be blessed......

Randolph said...

Beautiful pictures, CK. There's a career there waiting for you!

hoon said...

Kiat, the orkid is awesome and so majestic and look like some kind of living insect. the Taiping trees are artfully flexible. You have pieces of priceless abstract art! Next book ? "Majestic art -from the blessed lens"

Dalai Baru ( CK ) said...

Ha, ha, ha....

Well, if I survive this illness, I may want to take up photography and pursue a career in it.....

Anonymous said...

Dear CK,

There is a hero within you and you will survive.

May I leave this meaningful lyrics, There Is A Hero ( made famous by Mariah Carey) with you.

There's a hero,
If you look inside your heart,
You don't have to be afraid of what you are,
There's an answer,
If you reach into your soul,
And the sorrow that you know will melt away.

And then a hero comes along,
With the strength to carry on,
And you cast your fears aside and you know you can survive,
So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you.

It's a long road,
When you face the world alone,
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold,
You can find love,
If you search within yourself,
And the emptiness you felt will disappear.

Listen to this song often and take heart, you can beat cancer and survive. This shall also pass.

Anonymous said...


Found a blog that I thought you might be interested in - photography blog:


When the mind is active and cheerful, it's kinda easier to get better. :)