Monday, March 16, 2009

The other side of my mind...

This moment, did the sun rised from the other side of my mind ? Would it go down on the other side of the horizon this evening ? Emotionally, I lived through this so called journey of life by being adaptive to my surrounding. This journey of life, is at times, unpredictable. Like it or not, there are always times, where we have no choice but to embrace what was imposed by the surrounding. We carry on with life, hoping that the past justifies the present, and the present determines a predictable future. But life doesn't really work that way. It is an illogical science, and an abstract art. Well, Lao Tzu said “The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step” Did you take the first step voluntarily ? A the end of the journey, is the the destination your predetermined objective ? Or would it be a sad catastrophe ?

There are times, where I realized, the finality of the journey is near, and sad thing is, I am not rejoicing it. For I want to go forever and ever, but I know, it is not possible. This finite journey, it is numerically discrete, but yet indeterminable. Between now and the finality, I know, it is only a breath away. But can we measure that last breath in term of years, hours, or seconds ? The irony is, we accumulate wealth and knowledge, and we made major decisions in life, but are we able to decide upon the precise moment of that eternal last breath ?

Throughout our journey of life, we spend a great deal of time attempting to exercise control over all the parameters. We seek to control our territorial rights by having nice and comfortable house, to control our financial position to enable us to afford luxuries, to control our social network to gain respectability, etc. Our whole life is about control, but the bottom line is, at the end of the day, what do we actually control ? The largest plot of territorial rights we are are going to have is probably going to measure 4' by 10' and 6' under. The greatest financial wealth that is going to accompanying us to the other side of the realm is probably organic dusts and ashes, and the greatest social network that accompanies our final breaths is probably our lonely soul walking in the lonely valley of death......

In this journey, I encountered so many disconnected parallel road,s and too many intersections. These are not straight roads, but full of twists and turns. I had been through winding roads, and I also encountered many bumpy rides. I learned my lessons. I had never let those “up and down” get into me. I move on........ I traversed many difficult roads before, and I presumed it is not going to be easy ahead. But whatever it is, I had never abandon my oblation and responsibilities. I had learned not to be preoccupied with the final destination, but attempting my best efforts along the journey.

While I had worked hard to leave behind a legacy, my loved one, when finality descend upon me, would you keep my memories ? Would you tell all my loved ones that, I was once a traveler of life trying to make life better for everybody, so that they can live better than I never lived before ?

At the end of the day, from the other side of my mind, how do I measure my life ? Do I measure with the number of cities I visited ? Do I measure with the number of miles I traveled ? Do I measure with the number of friends I had ? Do I measure it with the amount of assets and financial wealth I accumulated ? Does it really matter how your life is going to be measured against ? The point is, let's be practical, you are already on this finite journey of nowhere, you better start praying now that the road ahead is long !!!

That's life........................... Ha... ha... ha.... LOL


Anonymous said...

From the other side of the world, I send you my energy and healing thoughts, hoping you overcome the terrible moment you're passing through.

Anonymous said...

John 16:33
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

1 John 5:14-15
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us--whatever we ask--we know that we have what we asked of him.