Thursday, June 11, 2009

On the road again.....

Finally, I had a good night sleep yesterday. It's been a while I never had such luxury of uninterrupted sleep for such a long time. I think, the pain killer, OxyContin, prescribed by the good doctor did the wonder for me yesterday evening.

I woke up this morning feeling very refresh and in good mood. My appetite for breakfast was also extremely good. I managed to finished one big bowl of Pan Mee !! Hmmmm... yummy, yummy....

After the breakfast, I seek my wife's assistance to arrange the 3D Conformal Radiation Therapy treatment sessions for me with the hospital. Tomorrow, I will have to check into the hospital to do the “CT Planning” for the 3DCRT. Tomorrow session, if I understand it correctly, is for the doctor and lab technicians to do mapping of treatment area ( tumor and its vicinity) using the CT scan result which was done 2 days ago.

After the mapping, my first 3DCRT session will start on Monday. All together, there will be a minimum of 31 sessions of 3DCRT on daily basis except Saturday & Sunday. During the treatment period, I will have to take on twice a day basis oral chemo tablet of Capecitabine ( Xeloda ) to complement the radiation therapies. I was told, the Xeloda will act as radiosensitizer to make the 3DCRT more effective. I do hope these sessions of 3DCRT can help to target correct dosages of radiation precisely into the tumor to trigger remission, and thereby improve my chances of recovery.

It has been a long and winding road for the previous 10 months in my quest to restore my health. Honestly, it has been also a very frustrating experience for me dealing with previous failed attempts and the emotional ups and downs of trying to stay positive and maintain my sanity over the whole process. I have nothing else to lose to chart into this unknown territory of radiation therapy. I am confident, I can overcome this illness and restore my health in due course. I will do whatever that are necessary and within my control, the rest, I leave it to the Almighty to guide the good doctor and his medical team to perform healing miracles on me.

Well, I am on the road again to fight for my survival.............. “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” ( Psalm 23:4) Praise the Lord.

1 comment:

kit ying said...

Dearest CK
So happy to hear that you have regained your appetite. More happy that you can claim God's promises in the Bible. Yes tho you walk through the valley God is with you and he will carry you through. I don't want to sound so spiritual but at this point in time, we can only look to the Almighty for his grace and peace. yes i understand the frustration you are going thru as you have been so optimistic but this is the fact of our physical being. Cancer cannot be cured overnight. It seems so long but have you wondered what kept you going for so long?
Hang on in there and don't hold anything back. Let out your anxiety and frustration , let your loved ones know, they'll understand and will always be there for you. Don't ever think you are a burden to them . We all love you and wish you a speedy recovery with this new treatment.
Resist the temptation to think that God is not listening or watching over you. Just learn to dwell in his presence. Keep busy with things that interest you like photography cos you took such lovely shots of the butterflies.