Thank God Is Friday ?
Today is Friday. According to the Kongchiew (Banana - Yellow outside, White inside), today is December 22nd 2006. But for a "Chitan" like me (Egg - White outside, Yellow Inside ), today is the 3rd day of the 11th lunar month in the year of the Dog. Officially, today is Dong Zhi ( Winter Solstice). Another 57 days to go before we welcome the year of the Pig in February 18th 2007.The week that was, was full of surprises and tainted with too many unknowns ! But nevertheless, TGIF. And today, the night shall be the longest, and it is a long weekend ahead. So, I shall have a good sleep, and have enough time to recuperate and recharge my battery for higher level of energy confrontations in the coming week. The fact that I am still able to blog here means, I am still a sane man ! Thank God.
Spiritually speaking, I have been challenged with occurances of uninvited unknowns and phenomena. My momentarily mental weaknessess have consciously allowed myself to be aware of the "invincible realms". I know what these morphers want, and I definitely know where I stand. It is not that I do not believe in spirituality or rather the greater power of the almighty, but for the time being, I need to find a physical and logical conclusion to defend my state of being. I need to built my energy reserves to withstand the mounting intrusions of negative energy contaminations. I have resisted and neutralized ome unknown spiritual parasites, I am in full control of my mind now , and I shall make my stand again in the circle of ring.
My mind have been tormented for practically the past two weeks with spiritual unknowns. To a certain extend, my emotion has been zig-zaggedly polarized with fears of unknowns and the attachment to the desires to embrace the power of spirituality. Should I restrained myself from experiencing the unexplored environmental enticings because of my present materials commitments ? How do I know I am not stepping into the territories of insanity ? How do I handle future consequences that defied logical conclusion ?
As I become more logical, I am beginning to lose my ability to parse and sense. Have I become spiritually blind and an intellectual fool ? On the other hand, by being logical, I have been spiritually challenged to submit to this parasitic domain of unknowns. How can I defend my logical state of being from interferences that defied logics ? I know I will.
Or, Am I going through a period of mental hallucinations that gave rise to pseudo events that simulate unexplainable environmental mysteries ? That temple of the kings look so beautiful. Should I just be a little bit spiritually adventurous by putting my first step into the door of perpetualities and become the miracle workers of the almighty ? God, it is difficult to manage the state of constant awareness of both the "visible" and "invisible" dimensions.
Arrg... Am I a human being, Spiritual being, or Physical being ? All these nonsense and insensible rantings, I need more coffee now to keep my physical mental alertness !
1 comment:
Hi Friend,
I drop by your blog now and then, but I've never written any comments before.
I noticed your last two posts showed you are feeling emotionally and spiritually down.
Every one of us gets through such situations some time during our journey through life. Face it bravely, get support from friends and family, and say a bit of prayer and you should do OK. I think you wrote before about how you were once down to your last cent, and no money to buy food for your family. You pulled through in the end, you can do it again. Other than a fatal accident or incurable sickness, most situations in life have some possibility for improvement, even it you may need to endure hardship.
I believe you are a Buddhist, read again the teachings of the Buddha. They have been a constant source of strength for me. I did not really delve into Buddhism until I was over 40. Like many Malaysian Chinese I was nominally a “Buddhist”, but simply followed the Chinese folk religion. I only learnt the true teachings of the Buddha after a family tragedy.
A side story – on the incident with all the left hand side shoes outside your home going missing. There’s probably a weirdo in your neighbourhood. Recently there was a case in the East Coast , I think, where somebody was going around stealing only RED women’s underwear ! The guy’s a pervert, but I have learnt to be tolerant of such things – after all he didn’t kill or injure anyone, and didn’t steal anything really valuable.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
Namo Ami-Tofo. Peace be with you.
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